DES daughter

Being a DES daughter ticks a lot of boxes for me. I don't have proof; any records like that have long been destroyed. But it makes a lot of sense, and I only recently discovered this. I already go through extra mammograms and other tests because of family history of disease. I believe my concerns will result in more tests which is fine.

Things like very early puberty, being the tallest girl in my class as a young girl when we are not a tall family... there is other stuff I struggled with as a child that DES exposure doesn't explain, but I will always wonder about, like inability to focus in class and stay still, and hyperlexia which at the time seemed like a miracle but I now know is something kids on the spectrum sometimes have. The 1960s was a kind of wild west time about drugs given to women to prevent miscarriage etc. I know if I had had a difficult pregnancy back then I would have trusted doctors. And I know that I was.

Anyway, I don't expect anybody reads this blog I just wanted to save it somewhere as I digest the idea. 

I also try to be grateful for the amazing things I've been able to experience including finding fascinating things in ordinary life. I've got three crows that meet me on occasion for peanuts and they always grab my attention to tell me when they are there. We don't do this everyday; like me, they are cautious and curious. I play a lot of chess online, and I  am always pursuing new outdoor experiences, which sounds contradictory doesn't it - but it's not. Chess is good for my mental exercise and outdoor experiences are good for everything. Lots of friends and adventures. I also take guitar lessons and have taken 8 years of piano. It's an interesting life. One of my daily mantras is "Don't be sad - be grateful."